Partially, I realised that I was genderqueer - but more than this, I felt so angry at everything. I couldn't pay attention. Couldn't sit still. Kept getting in trouble at school. All the while somehow convincing my parents and friends that I was still this perfect kid. That everything was fine.

I thought that it was a bit weird and I tried to hide it by getting a girlfriend so that none of my friends thought that I was weird. My friends used to make jokes about gay people and I would just go along with them to not act weird.